Crazy week!

So I have had a crazy emotional week and thought what better way to let out all that's inside but to start a blog! The week started with my oldest son Bj starting Jr. High school and my middle child starting kindergarten, if you have kids you know how emotional it is to see your babies start school especially kindergarten! You start to look back and wonder just where time has gone! Abygail did very good, which I would t expect any less she has been pretty independent since the day she was born! She had some last minute tears once we got to her classroom but by the end of the day she was already a pro! Bj said he only got lost one time, which is awesome considering he went from one classroom in elementary school to six different classes in Jr. High! The past couple of months for our family has kinda been one thing after another in June one of my younger sisters went through a really rough emotional break down and tried to commit suicide. She was on a respirator for two days and we were not sure she would ever be the same again or even wake up! It was really one of the scariest experiences I have ever gone through! I'm not sure I have ever truly prayed so hard in my entire life. God did not fail our family though she woke up with no extensive brain damage! After she was released from the hospital she had to stay in a therapeutic facility until they were confident she was not a danger to herself. Then after that she and my dad came to stay at our house for a whole. On top of my kids starting school my dad and her have decided to leave our house this week which is emotional to me because I have enjoyed seeing them everyday. I know it's for the best and I know that I have to get my house back in order I just can't shake the guilt of them having to leave. God granted me with a helping nurturing heart and sometimes it gets the best of me.  If you are an emotional person like me when one thing gets to you, you start thinking of everything else in your life and sometimes that can be overwhelming. As I have sat this week looking back at my life thinking how fast the last five years have flown by I think back to when I was graduating high school and all the ambitions I had. I just knew that I would graduate and go to nursing school, I would finish school and then work at a hospital in labor and delivery delivering babies all day, well that didn't happen. Does that mean I'm a failure? No it just means that my life changed directions. On days when I get a bill in the mail that I can't pay or my car breaks down and we don't have the money to fix it or one of my kids want to do an activity that at the time we just can't afford, I can't help but look back and look down on myself saying "well if you would have finished school you wouldn't have these problems". Truthfully that's probably not the truth I would just have different problems. Everyone had problems it's how we choose to deal with those problems that define us! Everyone on this earth has a purpose and it's up to is to live up to that purpose! So if you are like me, having an emotional week and looking back kicking yourself in the butt take a breath, take a break, kiss your kids and be thankful you are alive, trust that your life has purpose and give yourself a break!